It's cold outside The rain falls like tears from my eyes The sky reflects off the pavement And I see her face in every single cloud And her eyes in every single light God, I hate this town I just want to leave but I've been so afraid And overwhelmed by pain and what other people think So I just hold it in and let it out on a stage That's where I feel okay until I walk away And the pain begins again again again again again The pain begins again again again again again The pain begins again again again again again And I can't win I can't...

(Dearest) Giving me hope Back when we both felt what it feels like Passing the time in the dark night I can't remember how to love you I can't remember how to love you Love you (Deion Reverie) Memories creepin' through the... memories... Memories creep in through the late night, I'm haunted Surrounded by the demons I hunted Thought I had everything that I wanted But it turns out all that I wanted Was to feel peace in the morning But there's a piece of me longing To find something I've wanting To numb this pain I've been loaning To somebody else Spending all these sleepless nights Wishing that I could become (somebody else) Can't remember how to love you I feel like I have become (somebody else) In the late nights when I realize that I hate myself I start wondering how've you been feeling So tell me have you been sleepless too Have I been running through your mind When you try in the night You've been on some new shit I've been going through it But I just play it off like I'm fine Can't remember how to love you Spending most my nights trying to remember Why I loved you Alone in this room I still feel like I can touch you 'Cause you haunt me like a ghost mmm (From the moment you wake To the moment you dream All you'll see is me Your nightmares are my relief You can't escape me)

I don’t think that I could let you go You haunt these walls I’ve tried playing every note To forget but I can’t ‘Cause the ghost of you lingers And pulls me back in To a place where my nightmares Start to feel like home And I feel okay because I’m not alone here The sound of your voice echoes Through shattered moments in time And I won’t leave ‘cause Where you go I will follow you In your arms I feel no sorrow with you You said you had to let me go But you still haunt these halls I’ve tried singing every song To escape the pain But I never win So I wait for your ghost To come pull me back in To a place where my nightmares Start to feel like home And I feel okay because I’m not alone here The sound of your voice echoes Through shattered moments in time And I won’t leave ‘cause Where you go I will follow you In your arms I feel no sorrow with you

We can’t spend our lives here Speaking lies to comfort fear Waiting for a sign to near You’ve been Waiting So long To know This is Worth it And where You belong I know that we’re dying But I know that you’re trying We can’t spend our lives apart We’ve tried with broken hearts So we run to each others arms You’ve been Waiting So long To know This is Worth it And where You belong I know that we’re dying But I know that you’re trying But I can’t (Love you) Now I’m back on some other shit Tryna feel how I felt when I love you then Outta nowhere the thought of us fucking hit But It don’t feel like it did when I touched you then Now I’m just hoping that you See I can’t love you I tried and I want to I swear that I wanted you Swear that its true But I am still broken And I am still haunted And I’m still feeling her when I’m touching you I know that this hurts you But I’m being honest I honestly hate that I did this to you So now I must stop this ‘Cause I do not want this And you deserve better I want that for you Don’t be sad I know I really fucked you up I hate that But I really do care Please know that I just have to let you go ‘cause I can’t No I can’t (Love you)

I kissed your lips and I felt nothing And the hand that I was touching Was shaking, you were afraid of losing something Like the eyes you said don’t look at you the same ‘Cause I wasn’t there no I couldn’t let go Of somebody else I was too scared Too broken and cold I know I should’ve said I don’t love myself enough to love you right now Oh love, I’m Sorry I wasted your time Oh love, I’m sorry I saw you trying to keep it alive Oh love, I’m sorry I wasted your time I’m so sorry I wasted your time I’m so sorry You thought you were mine I’m so sorry I don’t love myself enough to love you right now Oh love, I’m Sorry I wasted your time Oh love, I’m sorry I saw you trying to keep it alive Oh love, I’m sorry

After you sing your songs and leave the stage I'll be there And when it's late at night and you're with her I'll still be there From the moment you wake to the moment you dream All you'll see is me Your nightmares are my relief You can't escape me You can't escape this I'm dying I'm dying Dying

Late night Drinking alone I got photos of you on my phone That’s okay, right? I still have the videos too I just scrolled through a few And it’s 1:38 right now Emotions are flowing Scroll through our texts I just know where its going Everyone’s telling me You’re probably doing the most, yeah Outside with your friends while I’m alone, yeah All the voices tell me to move on, yeah Take the pain and put in a song, yeah Just when I thought I was finally sober Your body’s a drug I can’t let go, yeah And I’m falling apart I know that you have a rep But I want it bad (I haven't been feeling like myself lately) Have you been sleeping all alone Have you been waiting by the phone Have you been waiting for the call (oh god) Are you even at home (right now) I’ve been sleepless way too long I’ve been dealing with it all Finding new ways to cope (oh god) I’ve been sleeping with ghost (ohhh) I’ve been spending all my late nights Painting pretty pictures of a late life Where i’m still existing Booking late flights to another city Just to feel alright or feel something different I got no time I just numb myself until it’s showtime I just meditate until I feel flight I just medicate until I lose sight (Sight of everything) And I’m falling apart Falling apart (Fuck everything, I let go) Imma fuck for revenge ‘Cause you fucked with my heart (Then we make the mistake) Over over again We try to restart (I’m addicted to it) In hell it begins and it’s hell when it ends

I called to see if you were in the mood Even though I knew You said "I'll meet you at our favorite spot 2am on the dot get ready See you soon" We have our reasons why we do this thing we do And we both know the rules No commitment, no emotion We're just going through the motions of simulated devotion As I use your body (Can I be the one to make you feel in love?) I just wanna use your body (Can I be the one to make you feel in love?) You pull up and make your way to my car Outshining every star High heels with the trench coat Center fold material How am I where you are You get in, I place my hand on your thigh We don't speak a word but your eyes say "I'm ready" And I'm ready so I kiss you where you like it You rip off your jacket and we move it to the backseat Windows looking like the scene from your favorite movie Turn the radio on we don't want nothing distracting Only sound I want to hear is your moaning and your heartbeat As you use my body I can be the one to make you feel in love I just want to feel somebody Can you be the one to make me feel in love Just ride me (Let's lose control tonight) Just ride me like you're in love Like you're in love Just ride me (Let's lose control tonight) Just ride me like you're in love Like you're in love Just ride me (Let's lose control tonight) Just ride me like you're in love Like you're in love Just ride me (Let's lose control tonight) Like you're in love Like you're in love Oh woah Yeah, yeah, oh ride it Oh ride it Ride oh ride Right there, right there Yeah you got it Right there Don't slow down, don't speed up Yeah you got it just ride it Right there girl right there Yeah you got it Right there Don't slow down, don't speed up Yeah you got it You got it yeah yeah

You've been waiting So long to know This is worth it And where you belong You know that we're dying

I be thinkin' bout some shit when it's no lights Like how I had a good girl I didn't treat right Only love her when I see her in the daylight Then find another body when she leave right Late night fantasize about the show life And a bitch with no panties and thick thighs Who only love me 'cause she saw me in the low light On stage singing my pain Yeah I know right, pathetic I guess that's on me I can't love you 'cause I do not love me Scroll through my messages, all that you see Is me sending dick pics to boost self esteem I want to feel like I matter to me But I have been fucked up since "Better For Me" I'm hurt that I hurt you 'cause someone hurt me But everything changes eventually And I'm hoping you see that I've been sleepless, too The devil lives inside my room A room that soon will be a tomb A tomb that soon will be a womb Carrying the weight of my demons I'm leaving for you in the form of a tune Shoot for the sky I don't aim for the moon 'cause I'm over it So I just land on myself Because I am a star in my dreams when I sleep And stop thinking of you

(Love you) All my life I've been looking for someone to share my nights I've been looking for someone (Love you) All my life I've been looking for someone to share my nights I've been looking for someone (Love you) All my life I've been looking for someone to share my nights I've been looking for someone (Love you) All my life I've been looking for someone to share my nights I've been looking for someone She said do you believe in love at first sight I said I don't know Do you believe in fucking on the first night She laughed and said it's whatever I'm like cool, you got condoms in your purse right I'm sorry I'm not prepared This is just so unexpected I honestly haven't thought about sex Since back in Texas and depression hit Followed by that breakup text is this for real Like am I dreamin right now Am I fantasizing Are you really in front of me or just behind my eyelids I'm sorry for all of this it's just that my mind is Needing sleep but I can't sleep because I fear the silence So I reach for my phone and do the same shit that I am alone for Lately I've communicating with all of my exes Like I have a fetish knowing they're better not being next to me Like how you feeling right now You happy, you good, you eating, you healthy? I see you're living on south beach I heard you got a new man now I'm hoping he treats you well I hate that I couldn't do you better She said I never loved anyone like I loved you I still think back on the memories Of every moment we spent together I'll cherish those forever I see you been killing the shit musically When you make it just promise that you'll remember me That's when I told her I also cherish those memories That first sight, first kiss, first night in that backseat I'll never forget I won't let that shit fade And on nights when you find yourself sleepless like me Just remember I'm one call away One call away One call away One call away All my life I've been looking for someone to share my nights I've been looking for someone All my life I've been looking for someone to share my nights I've been looking for someone All my life I've been looking for someone to share my nights I've been looking for someone All my life I've been looking for someone to share my nights I've been looking for someone All my life I've been looking for someone to share my nights I've been looking for someone All my life I've been looking for someone to share my nights I've been looking for someone

I left you better than you came Maybe it's better if you stay Maybe it's better if you stay

Better alone Than being with me You wait for my arms With patience eternally Lost in the fog Stranded at sea You try to call You try to scream for me But I never come I’ll never be Where I belong I want to be what you see But I never show I'll never be Where I belong Or what you want me to be You're better alone Than being with me You wait for my arms With patience eternally You're lost in the fog Stranded at sea You try to call You try to scream for me But I never come I’ll never be Where I belong I want to be what you see But I never show I'll never be Where I belong Or what you want me to be No matter how hard we want it No matter how hard we plead No matter how hard we want it No matter how hard we plead No matter how hard we want it No matter how hard we plead No matter how hard we want it No matter how hard we plead

I’ve spent too many dawns Too many moons Coping with a broken heart Begging at your door Fading for you Yearning for another start You know I haven’t crystallized But I’m falling apart and Oh You turn with your crystal eyes And I can’t see at all As the credits start to roll I can't feel it And I can’t feel at all As the credits start to roll Something fills the room An inaudible applause Like they didn’t feel a thing at all, I know It's like they didn’t see the scene at all Like it wasn’t understandable, I know The applause was inaudible 'Cause there was no one in the room There was no one in the room No, oh, no (As I Sing My Sorrow) No one, no one , no one (As I Sing My Sorrow)

There's ghost in the halls of my home And ghost in the walls of my heart Will I ever know whole again Will I ever know home again Rain falls on all of my sleepless nights Bringing painful thoughts to my restless mind But there's hope Hope You wake up Though your heart is breaking And you know it's not enough You break up And the pain's awakened But the wound has seen enough And when you go you take my air with you And so shallow breaths I guess will have to do So shallow breaths I guess will have to do