1. |
Opening Scene
02:01
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It's cold outside
The rain falls like tears from my eyes
The sky reflects off the pavement
And I see her face in every single cloud
And her eyes in every single light
God, I hate this town
I just want to leave but I've been so afraid
And overwhelmed by pain and what other people think
So I just hold it in and let it out on a stage
That's where I feel okay until I walk away
And the pain begins again again again again again
The pain begins again again again again again
The pain begins again again again again again
And I can't win
I can't...
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2. |
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(Dearest)
Giving me hope
Back when we both felt what it feels like
Passing the time in the dark night
I can't remember how to love you
I can't remember how to love you
Love you
(Deion Reverie)
Memories creepin' through the... memories...
Memories creep in through the late night, I'm haunted
Surrounded by the demons I hunted
Thought I had everything that I wanted
But it turns out all that I wanted
Was to feel peace in the morning
But there's a piece of me longing
To find something I've wanting
To numb this pain I've been loaning
To somebody else
Spending all these sleepless nights
Wishing that I could become
(somebody else)
Can't remember how to love you
I feel like I have become
(somebody else)
In the late nights when I realize that I hate myself
I start wondering how've you been feeling
So tell me have you been sleepless too
Have I been running through your mind
When you try in the night
You've been on some new shit
I've been going through it
But I just play it off like I'm fine
Can't remember how to love you
Spending most my nights trying to remember
Why I loved you
Alone in this room
I still feel like I can touch you
'Cause you haunt me like a ghost
mmm
(From the moment you wake
To the moment you dream
All you'll see is me
Your nightmares are my relief
You can't escape me)
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I don’t think that I could let you go
You haunt these walls
I’ve tried playing every note
To forget but I can’t
‘Cause the ghost of you lingers
And pulls me back in
To a place where my nightmares
Start to feel like home
And I feel okay because I’m not alone here
The sound of your voice echoes
Through shattered moments in time
And I won’t leave ‘cause
Where you go
I will follow you
In your arms
I feel no sorrow
with you
You said you had to let me go
But you still haunt these halls
I’ve tried singing every song
To escape the pain
But I never win
So I wait for your ghost
To come pull me back in
To a place where my nightmares
Start to feel like home
And I feel okay because I’m not alone here
The sound of your voice echoes
Through shattered moments in time
And I won’t leave ‘cause
Where you go
I will follow you
In your arms
I feel no sorrow
with you
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4. |
Sleepless
03:09
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We can’t spend our lives here
Speaking lies to comfort fear
Waiting for a sign to near
You’ve been
Waiting
So long
To know
This is
Worth it
And where
You belong
I know that we’re dying
But I know that you’re trying
We can’t spend our lives apart
We’ve tried with broken hearts
So we run to each others arms
You’ve been
Waiting
So long
To know
This is
Worth it
And where
You belong
I know that we’re dying
But I know that you’re trying
But I can’t
(Love you)
Now I’m back on some other shit
Tryna feel how I felt when I love you then
Outta nowhere the thought of us fucking hit
But It don’t feel like it did when I touched you then
Now I’m just hoping that you
See I can’t love you
I tried and I want to
I swear that I wanted you
Swear that its true
But I am still broken
And I am still haunted
And I’m still feeling her when I’m touching you
I know that this hurts you
But I’m being honest
I honestly hate that I did this to you
So now I must stop this
‘Cause I do not want this
And you deserve better
I want that for you
Don’t be sad
I know I really fucked you up
I hate that
But I really do care
Please know that
I just have to let you go ‘cause I can’t
No I can’t
(Love you)
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5. |
Oh Love
03:25
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I kissed your lips and I felt nothing
And the hand that I was touching
Was shaking, you were afraid of losing something
Like the eyes you said don’t look at you the same
‘Cause I wasn’t there no
I couldn’t let go
Of somebody else
I was too scared
Too broken and cold
I know I should’ve said
I don’t love myself enough to love you right now
Oh love, I’m Sorry
I wasted your time
Oh love, I’m sorry
I saw you trying to keep it alive
Oh love, I’m sorry
I wasted your time
I’m so sorry
I wasted your time
I’m so sorry
You thought you were mine
I’m so sorry
I don’t love myself enough to love you right now
Oh love, I’m Sorry
I wasted your time
Oh love, I’m sorry
I saw you trying to keep it alive
Oh love, I’m sorry
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After you sing your songs and leave the stage
I'll be there
And when it's late at night and you're with her
I'll still be there
From the moment you wake to the moment you dream
All you'll see is me
Your nightmares are my relief
You can't escape me
You can't escape this
I'm dying
I'm dying
Dying
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7. |
Sober
01:54
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Late night
Drinking alone
I got photos of you on my phone
That’s okay, right?
I still have the videos too
I just scrolled through a few
And it’s 1:38 right now
Emotions are flowing
Scroll through our texts
I just know where its going
Everyone’s telling me
You’re probably doing the most, yeah
Outside with your friends while I’m alone, yeah
All the voices tell me to move on, yeah
Take the pain and put in a song, yeah
Just when I thought I was finally sober
Your body’s a drug I can’t let go, yeah
And I’m falling apart
I know that you have a rep
But I want it bad
(I haven't been feeling like myself lately)
Have you been sleeping all alone
Have you been waiting by the phone
Have you been waiting for the call (oh god)
Are you even at home (right now)
I’ve been sleepless way too long
I’ve been dealing with it all
Finding new ways to cope (oh god)
I’ve been sleeping with ghost (ohhh)
I’ve been spending all my late nights
Painting pretty pictures of a late life
Where i’m still existing
Booking late flights to another city
Just to feel alright or feel something different
I got no time
I just numb myself until it’s showtime
I just meditate until I feel flight
I just medicate until I lose sight
(Sight of everything)
And I’m falling apart
Falling apart
(Fuck everything, I let go)
Imma fuck for revenge
‘Cause you fucked with my heart
(Then we make the mistake)
Over over again
We try to restart
(I’m addicted to it)
In hell it begins and it’s hell when it ends
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I called to see if you were in the mood
Even though I knew
You said "I'll meet you at our favorite spot
2am on the dot get ready
See you soon"
We have our reasons why we do this thing we do
And we both know the rules
No commitment, no emotion
We're just going through the motions of simulated devotion
As I use your body
(Can I be the one to make you feel in love?)
I just wanna use your body
(Can I be the one to make you feel in love?)
You pull up and make your way to my car
Outshining every star
High heels with the trench coat
Center fold material
How am I where you are
You get in, I place my hand on your thigh
We don't speak a word but your eyes say "I'm ready"
And I'm ready so I kiss you where you like it
You rip off your jacket and we move it to the backseat
Windows looking like the scene from your favorite movie
Turn the radio on we don't want nothing distracting
Only sound I want to hear is your moaning and your heartbeat
As you use my body
I can be the one to make you feel in love
I just want to feel somebody
Can you be the one to make me feel in love
Just ride me
(Let's lose control tonight)
Just ride me like you're in love
Like you're in love
Just ride me
(Let's lose control tonight)
Just ride me like you're in love
Like you're in love
Just ride me
(Let's lose control tonight)
Just ride me like you're in love
Like you're in love
Just ride me
(Let's lose control tonight)
Like you're in love
Like you're in love
Oh woah
Yeah, yeah, oh ride it
Oh ride it
Ride oh ride
Right there, right there
Yeah you got it
Right there
Don't slow down, don't speed up
Yeah you got it just ride it
Right there girl right there
Yeah you got it
Right there
Don't slow down, don't speed up
Yeah you got it
You got it yeah yeah
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9. |
Sleepless (Coda)
00:34
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You've been waiting
So long to know
This is worth it
And where you belong
You know that we're dying
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10. |
The Weight Of My Demons
01:28
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I be thinkin' bout some shit when it's no lights
Like how I had a good girl I didn't treat right
Only love her when I see her in the daylight
Then find another body when she leave right
Late night fantasize about the show life
And a bitch with no panties and thick thighs
Who only love me 'cause she saw me in the low light
On stage singing my pain
Yeah I know right, pathetic
I guess that's on me
I can't love you 'cause I do not love me
Scroll through my messages, all that you see
Is me sending dick pics to boost self esteem
I want to feel like I matter to me
But I have been fucked up since "Better For Me"
I'm hurt that I hurt you 'cause someone hurt me
But everything changes eventually
And I'm hoping you see that I've been sleepless, too
The devil lives inside my room
A room that soon will be a tomb
A tomb that soon will be a womb
Carrying the weight of my demons
I'm leaving for you in the form of a tune
Shoot for the sky
I don't aim for the moon 'cause I'm over it
So I just land on myself
Because I am a star in my dreams when I sleep
And stop thinking of you
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11. |
Share My Nights
03:19
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(Love you)
All my life
I've been looking for someone to share my nights
I've been looking for someone
(Love you)
All my life
I've been looking for someone to share my nights
I've been looking for someone
(Love you)
All my life
I've been looking for someone to share my nights
I've been looking for someone
(Love you)
All my life
I've been looking for someone to share my nights
I've been looking for someone
She said do you believe in love at first sight
I said I don't know
Do you believe in fucking on the first night
She laughed and said it's whatever
I'm like cool, you got condoms in your purse right
I'm sorry I'm not prepared
This is just so unexpected
I honestly haven't thought about sex
Since back in Texas and depression hit
Followed by that breakup text is this for real
Like am I dreamin right now
Am I fantasizing
Are you really in front of me or just behind my eyelids
I'm sorry for all of this it's just that my mind is
Needing sleep but I can't sleep because I fear the silence
So I reach for my phone and do the same shit that I am alone for
Lately I've communicating with all of my exes
Like I have a fetish knowing they're better not being next to me
Like how you feeling right now
You happy, you good, you eating, you healthy?
I see you're living on south beach
I heard you got a new man now
I'm hoping he treats you well
I hate that I couldn't do you better
She said I never loved anyone like I loved you
I still think back on the memories
Of every moment we spent together
I'll cherish those forever
I see you been killing the shit musically
When you make it just promise that you'll remember me
That's when I told her I also cherish those memories
That first sight, first kiss, first night in that backseat
I'll never forget
I won't let that shit fade
And on nights when you find yourself sleepless like me
Just remember I'm one call away
One call away
One call away
One call away
All my life
I've been looking for someone to share my nights
I've been looking for someone
All my life
I've been looking for someone to share my nights
I've been looking for someone
All my life
I've been looking for someone to share my nights
I've been looking for someone
All my life
I've been looking for someone to share my nights
I've been looking for someone
All my life
I've been looking for someone to share my nights
I've been looking for someone
All my life
I've been looking for someone to share my nights
I've been looking for someone
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12. |
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I left you better than you came
Maybe it's better if you stay
Maybe it's better if you stay
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13. |
Better Alone
03:34
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Better alone
Than being with me
You wait for my arms
With patience eternally
Lost in the fog
Stranded at sea
You try to call
You try to scream for me
But I never come
I’ll never be
Where I belong
I want to be what you see
But I never show
I'll never be
Where I belong
Or what you want me to be
You're better alone
Than being with me
You wait for my arms
With patience eternally
You're lost in the fog
Stranded at sea
You try to call
You try to scream for me
But I never come
I’ll never be
Where I belong
I want to be what you see
But I never show
I'll never be
Where I belong
Or what you want me to be
No matter how hard we want it
No matter how hard we plead
No matter how hard we want it
No matter how hard we plead
No matter how hard we want it
No matter how hard we plead
No matter how hard we want it
No matter how hard we plead
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14. |
[inaudible applause]
04:40
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I’ve spent too many dawns
Too many moons
Coping with a broken heart
Begging at your door
Fading for you
Yearning for another start
You know I haven’t crystallized
But I’m falling apart and Oh
You turn with your crystal eyes
And I can’t see at all
As the credits start to roll
I can't feel it
And I can’t feel at all
As the credits start to roll
Something fills the room
An inaudible applause
Like they didn’t feel a thing at all, I know
It's like they didn’t see the scene at all
Like it wasn’t understandable, I know
The applause was inaudible
'Cause there was no one in the room
There was no one in the room
No, oh, no
(As I Sing My Sorrow)
No one, no one , no one
(As I Sing My Sorrow)
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15. |
Credits (feat. Dearest)
02:40
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There's ghost in the halls of my home
And ghost in the walls of my heart
Will I ever know whole again
Will I ever know home again
Rain falls on all of my sleepless nights
Bringing painful thoughts to my restless mind
But there's hope
Hope
You wake up
Though your heart is breaking
And you know it's not enough
You break up
And the pain's awakened
But the wound has seen enough
And when you go you take my air with you
And so shallow breaths I guess will have to do
So shallow breaths I guess will have to do
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Deion Reverie Charlotte, North Carolina
just some dude.
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